It is just sad

I do not have a heart to accompany me

For a while I loved without being loved

Again my heart is trapped and lost in the sea

So I realized that even a hand that was gloved ...

"Whether I have love or not, life is sad anyway"

I do not have what I want in this world

Long ago I had it and everything was perfect

And once again this cold wind whirled

So I realize that even a man with these objects...

"Whether I have what I want or not, life is sad anyway"

I do not leave this house anymore

I used to go out every friday from the calendar

And suddenly I am beaten up until spit blood on the floor

Finally I realized that a homesick traveler...

"Whether I am at home or not, life is sad anyway"

I lost friends who used to be by my side

There was a time when they were all here

But some of them simply disappear

And just like a handshake full of pride...

"Whether I have friends or not, life is sad anyway"

I hope things get better in the next attack

Some things that are gone I want back

Other things that are here I want them gone

Like the shattered glass of a broken soul ...

"Whether I have hope or not, life is sad anyway"

By several times I already planned the day of my suicide

When I was young everything was easy to overcome

I think of all the things that I will never become

In my blind eyes I see I am dead inside

So... with or without life, it is sad anyway

Oliver Yeager

27th November 2018