focus

focus that comes and goes

the eternal fear of being left behind

static, motionless

a mountain of junk

that doesn't help at all

alarms and more alarms

for what?

time is a construction

and it's not always driven by action

and much less driven by emotion

focus that comes and goes

the dream that fades away

this is the life of someone who is always left behind

static, motionless

a mountain of junk

that doesn't help at all

planner? I don't even know what that is

my path is always in reverse

regression, no progress

always sinning by excess

in eternal lack of control

in eternal disdain for what takes me higher