I will never be able to do this again

I will never be able to do this again

Maybe I spend years

Thinking that life has passed

And I only lived in my head

Maybe I should get my driver's license

And get a motorcycle

And some friends

And eat food on the road

But find someone new

I will never be ready

To live it all over again

Without this thing inside my chest

Without all this insecurity

Without this inner prison

And no one will take it away

Even with any oath of love

Or memories

Nobody in the world

Will be able to make me

Want to live

Everything

Again

I will never be able to do this again