Survive
There are moments to live. And there are moments to survive. Don't make it harder on yourself for not making the most out of life in times of survival. You can live your life to its full potential when you are not in survival mode. But don't stress over those times when you need all the energy left in you just to keep you going. Moments like this may come to your life more than once. Stay strong. It's part of the journey, and you need to get through them so that you can see the beautiful days again.