__________> sorry to myself <_____________

If I had to apologize or forgive someone,

would just be myself,

for the countless times I let someone treat me so badly,

for the countless times I let someone make a fool of me. Or for the times I accepted less than I gave.
I forgive myself for the countless times I begged for a little love,

asked for affection and begged for attention, I just wanted a hug,
I forgive myself for the times I spent nights wondering if the problem was in me.
I do not deserve this.
I forgive myself for the times I agreed to stay when I should go,

I forgive myself for the times the other hurt me on purpose and I continued to accept it out of fear of being alone. I forgive myself for trying to stop being intense to fit someone so empty.
I forgive myself for letting the other tell me that the problem was in me.
I forgive myself for being affectionate,

I forgive myself for showing him all my love
when in fact it was someone who didn't know how to accept what I was willing to give.
I forgive myself and accept that I am enough and deserve more.