Valentine's Day (English)

Today is Valentine's day.

Everybody has a love partner. According to social media, everybody is perfectly happy in their relationships today, even the people who were cheating furtively on their partners just before taking those lovely pictures.

I am a 40-year-old lone man. I used to be married. I have problems. I became an introvert, which is not a problem per se. I became one because I decided to. Actually I didn't decide to be one because my brain chemistry manipulates what I think and, consequently, what I decide to do and not to do.

I am free to choose what to think up to a point where my brain takes over and controls my thoughts by filling my mind with distorted memories from the past, which are influenced by my present state and future-related anxieties.

So, it's safe to say that I am free to decide to do anything my brain tells me to.

Yes, my brain mocks me all the time. Actually it's mocking me now that I am writing this.

The same happens to those people on social media. What's the point in showing off their relationship? It's the need we human beings have to get appreciation from people we barely know, even if it be at the expense of our relationship health.

What is it all for? Am I reasoning because of some incompetence in not being able to form a meaningful relationship with anyone? Am I envious? Or is it that people in general are puppets of a system that has been working for a long time and they don't realize that?

They are slaves of each other and I am the lord of my lonely life! Neither one rings true.

So, what is the point in having or not having a relationship with someone? Bonding. We need it, we love it, still we despise it.

We are pitifully versatile.

But enough of it! I need to go to bed. Maybe I will pray to God so that he/she continues giving me the strength to be a good citizen. After all, what is better than being a good citizen and having good morals?