DECEMBER

Today when I woke up, unconsciously, you remember everything. Looks like I missed something, my heaven and my dreams were again dissolved by the loss of someone I never had. I cried this morning and the cold and rainy weather reminded me of our last Saturday; recently, however last. I remembered our late pleasant charm of our times and our words. I remembered "being together" that today is summarized in solitude in which I find myself. Today, my tears wanted to come down early. I tried to hold them all the time, but they came, in the silence of words, but within the soul in distress. I cried inside and out and all this knowing that all the time, I dreamed alone. And not only dreamed but believed in false words, a false feeling, once again be the target of a joke with my heart. Saddened me to know that you're gone, who chose it for his life. He made a choice, which I do not know if one day regret, but the only certainty I have is that I can not believe what you say feel for me. He told me so many beautiful things in recent times, even remember a post you wrote: "I like you a lot. Do not want to lose you, you're the one that I want for my life. I do not know how to act in a relationship, not wanting to ruin everything we have. I really love you and since December, I saw that you are the only person I want for my future. "Those were his words. Sometimes it until you believe it, but now I know they are false. "It's raining and I lay sleepless praying still have her in my arms. I know I acted the worst possible way with you, but I discovered that I love you and I need your presence. I know it's late, but I am in tears to know that I'm losing you, I want you for my life ... "I believed and even with so many things that have happened, I fought for something we could Tues Again I demonstrated my feeling, I devoted my time, I surrendered to this story and who left wounded, sad and wept again for everything, I did. It hurts a lot because before I did not have many memories. Were more fantasies, dreams to have it with me, memories of school days and that day marked in my life. Already today is different, because I was involved by his words, believed in his feeling, something that never existed for me. It will be difficult to try to forget what happened to us in those three months and 10 days we were together. It was not long, but for my part, can be sure that was true and very intense. After all, I was very happy at his side this time. I wanted to stay that way, but I can not dream alone. It's all in vain if you do everything for someone that does nothing for you, or do not feel the same as you, they do not look alike. But, I will accept your decision. Accept because you have free will to make decisions and decide what you want for your life. Maybe I'm really not the best person, the one who would be able to bring more joy, companionship, support and security in your life. I agree that not you tell me that again, and this time definitely follow my path. Wishing to put an end to this story, and you will never love me really. Maybe someday you'll look back and see the beautiful way that could build on my side.