Together II (13.8.2020)

Love is the hardest subject to talk about. Only a few people had the simplicity to speak it out-loud and well said.

Love

That is what I am looking at

With all my being and attention now.

Very carefully attentive to all details.

I don’t know you yet to direct my love to you

So I am putting this energy into the world

Hoping it will reach you someday.

Sharp points of my feelings sometimes cross bodies I do not reach. They hurt me instead. These beautiful creatures are teaching me something very profound, preparing me to meet you.

Love is taking care of me. And it hurts like a heart breaking. It is like a crack. This new feeling is covering it all with gold, in a painful burning process, remaining the crack visible, beautifully visible. Gold is a noble matter, and it could bring me luck.

I will rejoin Hope. Hope as an entity, the evil sister of Wait. Both are slowly devouring me. When they finish, something will happen. I know it for sure now. So I am waiting with hope. Letting myself dive into unmeaningful things while I wait for you. The creature who will light my golden part, who will mess up everything. I know you are out there, distracted from my absence. You won’t notice it until our paths cross. This is a relief, I don’t even want you to be licked by the sisters. Stay unharmed. You can be free, until love comes. I won’t be hurried, not desperate. I will respect you coming at your pace, so I will smile, wearing my earphones and enjoy my walkings until you arrive. That’s ok, because I already feel your existence and your love. That’s enough.