Live, destroy and die

I don’t really care about your lies

I just wish I could stop doing this

I wish my hands would stop hurting me

And that I stopped wasting my time

Turns out that I need the pain

It became part of me

And I hate it again every single time

But still I can’t help

Maybe if my mind could focus

But there’s nothing to look at

There is nothing close enough to draw my attention

I stopped believing in you

My mind is full of thoughts

They just don’t make any sense anymore

And while I watch my hours go away

My hands keep destroying what’s left of me

I’m about to die

But I’ve already died a thousand times

It doesn’t look like a big deal anymore

Even though every time it’s completely real and painful

Maybe if I’d never become alive again

Then I’d finally stop dying

But when it comes to revive

It seems that the odds are always in my favor

So I guess that’s my lot

Destroy myself and die

Die and come alive

Live and destroy one more time